When my first child was born, I was so young, and had no idea about parenting or different styles of parenting. I simply took the advice of family, and assumed it was for the best. I didn't have the confidence to do something other then what they were saying. They all said he would never sleep through the night if I didn't let him cry it out. So, I did it. I listened to my sweet baby boy cry himself to sleep. After a few nights, yes, he stopped crying and just went to sleep. But did he really learn to self sooth? I don't believe so. He learned I wouldn't come. This breaks my heart, even twelve years later.
My youngest daughter, who will be two in March, woke up at 2am and just did not want to go back to sleep. ( I ditched the whole cry it out method once I had my second because it went against every motherly instinct I had so not hold my baby when they needed me.) It's very easy as parents to get frustrated because we are tired and just want to sleep, but we have to remember babies are little people with feelings and fears and so many emotions that they can't express to us in any other way then to cry.
We can't expect to have babies, and then mold them in a way that makes our lives easier simply because what they need in momentarily inconvenient.
When I went to get her from her crib, she hugged me so tight, her tiny feet were cold, and she said, "mommy", between her sobs. Maybe she was cold. Maybe she just couldn't sleep. I will never know what woke her up or what she really needed. I just know that she needed. I could have laid her down and let her cry until she fell asleep. Assumed she was being manipulative. Crying just to get her way.
In some countries, and in a lot of cultures, it is unheard of that a baby will sleep in a separate room from their parents. And it makes me sad when I see moms asking for advice on how to put their baby down without them crying, or how to get them to sleep through the night. They thrive off of our physical touch and warmth. They have needs that have to be met. And while it might not always be a convenient time of day or night, we chose to be parents and it's all part of it. The exhaustion. Running off 3 hours of sleep like I am doing today.
Even as adults, we have difficulty sleeping. We wake up and need a drink of water. We wake up from being too hot, or too cold, Or maybe we just aren't tired. Guess what people?? Your baby goes through the same thing only that can't tell you and they can't fix it. So until they learn how, it's our job to try. Imagine waking up in the middle of the night, cold. And you can't tell anyone. And you can't pull a blanket on yourself. Imagine being left in the dark to fall asleep on your own.
My daughter wasn't being manipulative. All she knew was that something was bothering her and she needed her mommy. She needed comfort. And that is exactly what she got. I am so exhausted right now. But I gave my daughter something way more important then my sleep. I gave her the reassurance that I was there for her.
****( I am in no way certified or trained on the habits of infant sleep or crying it out. The above is simply my opinion based on my experience as a parent, and research I have conducted on my own time.)
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